Friday, October 14, 2005

I Have Moved

I have moved to my new site
you can go to my new site here blogs.zeroimpactlee.com
Hope to c u guys/gals there
cheers

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Extinction Of Patience

I was driving home yesterday and boom, the usual thing happened. Bad bad traffic jam. It was normal as I was just driving past BTS and stopped as the traffic came to a hold again. It was just a normal frust stuck in traffic day until I heard a band. “THAK”. I turned but I could not see anything, then the lady driving the kancil beside me wound down the window and adjusted her side mirror, we exchanged smile and I knew what had happened. Some maniac must have been cursed with the impatient devil passed by. I dunno, but I assumed he must be in a hurry or emergency or tummy ache or just plain impatient and inconsiderate. Hey at least slow down when you are going thru narrow passage like between our cars, you idiot.
Some people do not have the values instilled in them. I am not against people who are in hurry or what, but at least have the decency to be done it in proper manner. Come to think of it, patience is something that is slowly going into extinction. I do lose it sometime but I have learnt that patience is always the best time management tools we have. Don’t mistake patience with procrastination though!!!
Haven’t you experience that because of your lack in patience, the result differed from what it should be. Like a dish for example, if you start pouring stuff into the pan when the oil is not hot enuf, then the result is devastating. What I am trying to say is that, we often forget how important it is to wait and be patient. We seem to be rushing here and there, doing things fast and urgently. But did we think back if those that we have done is the right thing and was it the best thing to be done. We always say “it could have been done better if only I have the time”, but is it really that we did not have time, or we were just impatient and wanted to get over it… think bout it.
Patience is another chapter in our life we need to learn and again it’s another lesson that is not easy to learn. We all know we should be patient, but how many can stand up proudly and say I am a man/woman of great patience or I have learnt every thing the lesson patience has to offer.
I was not born an angel and therefore I can say that I was one of those devil that broke lose from hell. I had very low patience level but then as we move on in life, the level increases, like when u play final fantasy saga, you gain experience as you proceed through the game. I am still learning this lesson at this moment as I do occasionally lose myself to the devil within.
We should revive the nearly extinct “Patience” back to our life. Just thing if it is totally extinct… what would happen to us, our children, or children’s children. Or should we just leave it
What kind of world are we creating for our children…
A world with or without patience…

Monday, October 10, 2005

Runover Mouse

I was late today in starting my journey to work, coz I forgot to copy some files from my pc, but that is a long story…
It was like a normal battle field this morning, with cars battling to work. What caught mi attention as I approach the toll, was this tiny lil mouse or rat. Imagine this people, a rat bout the size of your knuckle, racing through the street which is bout 8 to 10 lanes. Imagine the feeling, the adrenaline rush, imagine you are the mouse. Imagine the havoc and atrocities… the lil being sped off but I was run over at the end of the road…
I know that you all would say, “it’s a rat/mouse”, “what’s there to it?”. Think bout it, don’t we all live like the mouse… don’t we all have experiences like the mouse…
Think bout it… in our daily life. Since we were born we have to deal with all the cute lil babies, family, relatives, friends and everyone else. They go like my baby said the 1st word, my baby started crawling, my baby started walking, and loads of other things.
Then it would be my baby started nursery, my baby started primary, my baby got 1st in class, my baby is obedient, I wan to be the best, I wan to be good and so forth. Now when it comes to the cruel working world, my baby is a doctor, a dentist, a lawyer, I wan to be successful, and so forth.
I think too many things I don’t even know what I have typed. Basically it’s the same, we are living like the mouse. We are racing here and there, climbing up ladders, flying up if possible, and may be dropping other down the ladder, pushing them off the cliff to get to the finish line. Do we actually stop and think about what we are doing now? Are we doing the right thing from the wrong thing? Are we hurting other people?
We often neglect those around us, petty things that we used to say “I can do that later/tomorrow/next week”. We tend to do that to our loved ones, family, friends and those we treasure… but we never did once stop and think, if we could not do that later/tomorrow/next week or even ever again. Then I guess we would do it now, at that moment. But does it have to come to that stage for us to realize the important things in our life. I am not saying that we should drop all things and go play, cuddle, spend time with them. What I am trying to express is that we do not live a complete or so to speak a balanced life. We should actually spend time with loved ones and at the same time have time to speed forward to success.
I am only human too, therefore I do make my shares of mistakes. But I try to stop and think before I act nowadays. I spend my weekends with my family now and I try to be there for those who needs me and even for those who does not need me, to make my presence felt. I am trying to make up for mistake I have done as well. With this I hope that my life will be more colorful and balanced.

STOP
THINK
LIVE A LIFE FULL OF JOY AND HAPPINESS RATHER THAN REGRETS

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Stressed And Relieved

Got in the car, rev up the engine, and went on my way after work. I didn’t know why I was so hype up that day, may be it was because my I was practically freezing to death in the office. I was like wearing a jacket for crying out loud and still was freezing and my fingers were numb most of the time… curse you building integrated air con…
Well I was like swearing every one on the road that evening, I have actually suppressed and learnt to control myself but it was just not me that evening.. freaking not me…
But at least something later that evening made up for all the lack in self control and restored my self from that freak who took over the wheels a couple of hours earlier.
I went to this karaoke joint in Cheras… (yes it’s called NEWAY). I was there like 8 started singing until 11. I think singing does let me voice out my troubles and whatever I want to throw out. I was feeling like myself in no time.
I was actually still on my so called diet, there fore I didn’t really grab food from the buffet although it’s included. I only went out to the buffet counter once and I was so lucky at that moment they brought out the oysters, mmmmm, yum yum yum. I can never resist oysters and therefore I trailed behind the staff and took a plate waiting to grab some. But to my surprise there was this man who was more into oysters than me. He took a plate, as the staff lay the oysters 1 by 1 on the counter, this man was grabbing as he puts them down. Tsk tsk tsk!!!
He was like taking half of the serving at that time. Some people can really do it man, HELLO, think of other a bit next time ok. I took bout 5 pieces and left the counter with some lemon while he was still trying to grab lemons for his enormous feast of oysters. Nevertheless, I refrain myself from getting annoyed by the man and continued singing and be happy.
Overall the nite was fun, BTW, it was my 1st time singing in this branch and I could see some of the staffs are from BTS. Overall a very nice experience and definitely nearer to my house, but the jam was as usual “horrible”.
A good stress relief program, don’t you think so!!!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Road Rage (To Be)??

I just finish lunch and was walking back to the office when I heard a plaintiff cry….
“Na… Na… Na…. Gud golly miss molly…”
Nah, if you knew the lyrics above, (yes it’s a song, duh) then you must either like oldies or it got stuck in your head due to the long hours your mum and dad plays them in da house, da car, and everywhere else…
The conversation was like “HOW CAN YOU DRIVE LIKE THAT”, or from how I perceive in his mind “WTH, HOW DARE YOU HIT ME”. As I stretched my eyeball I could see this white guy shouting at the poor bus driver. I didn’t get to hear much from the bus driver though.
The man continued shouting and I could see the bus driver numb, speechless. Well he might not be so well verse in english to converse back with the man. He looked so helpless or may be he is one of the heroes of our time, avoiding conflict at all cost. At this time they were both still in the middle of the road, still debating or rather the man was showing how wrong the bus driver was…
In the eye of the law the bus is definitely “Salah” as he hit “literally” hit the man’s butt. I didn’t know the course in the beginning or the end, but at that moment I guess the buss driver was polite, coz I can see in his face, he was not the guy in the arguing mode.
I don’t know the rest of the story after that as I still have a life to live so I continued to my office and working. But from what I have seen, who says Malaysians are the best in hospitality and worst in driving. The shouting and moving body parts are proves that not only Malaysians, but even those who are driving in Malaysia are in the worst category.
I don’t deny that I myself do tend to drive ala F1 or Initial D sometimes, not that I’m a bad driver or neither do I wan to show off, but you know ler it’s kinda like stress or may be you know ler Teng Wan mah, Ying Lo. I think its stress and a lack of self control. But I have not got down and shouted at any one yet to date. I was hit before and I just drove by the side and started to discuss like the A Long civilized human beings lah.

I think stress is just one part and self control is another. Someone made this equation
Emotions = fn(V)
If you take emotion is a function of an variable and that variable is let say the weather, then you would be worst than jekyl and hyde. At least he becomes bad at nite or after drinking some concoction. But this will be another subject…

Are we labeled correctly in the eyes of the world???
Or are we wrongly labeled??
I guess we will need to look deep down to find the answer ourselves!!!
Are you looking for the answer???

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

BBQ Steamboat

It’s din din time again. First of all I would like to say sorry for the multiple delays I have cause as this dinner was suppose to happen like a mth ago. Sorry, sorry.

Too bad my phone was out of batt if not I would have took some pics. The dinner took place at this place called BBQ buffet steamboat or something like that. It’s located in Taman Shamelin. If you have been there before then it’s easy to find coz it’s opposite the Toyota service center and it has 2 giant prawns sitting at the entrance.

Well… like what the name suggest it’s a steamboat but with the addition of BBQ as one of the elements in it. I was curious at first when mi colleague went and BBQ the prawns, mantis prawns, chicken wings and lotsa other stuff. I went round the place and I found out that they are ample food to go round, not incredible in variety but enuff to keep your taste buds working the whole course of the dinner.

As a guy who seldom who was not allowed in the kitchen, I took prawns and sotong and also octopus. I did the teppanyaki style rite next to the BBQ grill. It was hot and definitely hardwork for it was kinda my first other than maggi and mee in my mug/cup.

Overall the experience was ok with a bit of cooking and frying. But I noted that some of the seafood was not really fresh from the ocean if you know what I mean. But for the price of 19.80 excluding drinks, what else can you ask for. You get your own self wrecking time where you cook your hearts out. You get waste time watching the food get cooked on the grill.

For those who wants to try some new style steamboat and BBQ fusion, this is the place.

BON APPETITE!!

“ROAD IS LIKE TIGER’S MOUTH”

I woke up today only to find that I din have enuff sleep as I was reading all these blog entries yesterday. But still I was waking up on time and stuff but when I hit the road this morning, it was like a culture shock. The normally not so congested road became suddenly overpopulated by cars. It’s like the start of the fasting month and the start of morning congestion too… does it really have a connection??
Then when I was bout to reach the office, I turned in the junction and suddenly this lady just crosses the road in front of me. She did not even bother to check if there were cars!!! WTH, I was late edi and I stopped rite just before hitting her and she still don’t know she is in the middle of the road.
“YOU THINK YOUR FATHER’S ROAD AH”….
I honked and she was startled and I think she still thinks she owns the road… hell man. Then she moved on and I continued my journey to the office.

Well I mean I don’t want to be mean or anything and definitely the honking was like how many umpteen of yrs ago. I seriously don’t remember honking any one any time recently before this morning as far as I can remember. I just don’t want to be caught in this kinda situation man just imagine…
  1. I turn you walk

  2. You in the middle I hit

  3. I go balai kena question

  4. Our names go to fame in paper, radio, TV

  5. You ok I kena saman

  6. You ko I oso kena saman, tahan lesen,

You see it’s a hassle and its troublesome… and a living hell for me, me, me!!!!

I mean you should be alert, haven’t we all read in the papers, listen on the radio, saw on the TV, bout these tragic happenings involving not only adults, adolescents, children. It’s not that I value my life a lot more than other but I guess we should all be careful. When you are on the road, there’s danger everywhere, no matter if you are walking or driving or even gliding if you can.
Like what every one says but not practice

“MA LOU YU FU HAU”

Translation

“ROAD IS LIKE TIGER’S MOUTH”

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Ignorance Is Bliss??

I was out for lunch at pudu today. The normal routine ler, lunch time, sick of food round the corner, drive out, park, find shop, sit, order, food come, eat, go back. But todays routine was broken with this cute lil fella sitting at mi side.

This cute lil cat just pop out of nowhere and sat there like a gud pet waiting for it’s owner. I was gonna ignore it coz normally it would just leave me alone it I ignored it long enough. But this guy did not give up. It stood there and waited and did the occasional tap on my thigh, (can u imagine tat), what a brave lil guy. I am not saying and please do not assume I am a softy, but when it start doing the tap, it kinda invoked something in me.


Don’t you get the feeling something, it’s like a sudden wake up call. You feel there is a connection or something. And definitely I would like people to help me in my times of trouble. So being a caring person that I am (did I say that out loud enuff) I fed the cute lil fella. It’s like eating away happily and it gave me a feeling of content. Difficult to explain but you will know it once you felt it. it took the food when we were leaving and left the scene, I guess to have it’s meal in a more quiet and serene place of its liking.

I guess it’s easy to be ignorant some times or may be all the time. But just think bout it, if you were the one being ignored, “HOW, WHAT” would you feel???

IGNORANCE IS BLISS??

Double Standard???

“OMG, the terminals not working, I can’t do anything to change the config”
“I’m sending someone over now”
The wait was for 1 hour, what to do, evening on a Friday some more.
after the arrival and some checking & twisting & plugging in & out & a whole lotsa thing… the reply was “I can’t do anything”
Well I guess that’s the end of your life, faithful machine after 10+ yrs or service, a sentimental kinda thingee man…
Well that was the cause for me to leave the office late that nite. I rushed to midvalley to get my hair cut. Went in to ACut Above for an image makeover thingee. I was like shoulder length hair when I went in and came out with a gay cut kinda look…
The cutting was like close to 90 minutes man, that was one of the longest hair cut session I have had in my life… yada yada yada.
Actually what I want to say is they were professional and the really service the customers, (and I know coz I support customer service staffs in the off). I was the only one left in the place when they closed the gate and I was not even half done.
Don’t you get this feeling that you’re a pain in the @$$ when everyone is waiting for you. It’s like you are delaying everyone and coz of you everyone gets it.
THEY CAN’T GO HOME COZ OF ME…
I praise their professionalism as they were polite and definitely service with a smile lo, (though they might be still cursing me now for the delay, but I’ll give them the benefit of the doubt). Quickly after the cut I of coz apologize for the delay, of coz la, must make them feel a bit happy ma. If not the next time I thread in sure kena potong the head… (jes kidding, these guys & gals are real pros).
I guess I have to be more considerate next time so I don’t trouble other…
But don’t we just like to create trouble… esp with people we know…
Don’t we tend to be more tolerant with people we don’t know than our close ones
Don’t we tend to be more polite to strangers than people we know
Think bout it!!!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Yesterday Once More

I was invited by a friend to his wedding yesterday, at first I was like “hhmmmm… mmmmmm”. The fact is that I heard he was like inviting the closest friends and all, but I have like seen him for only once in the past I don’t remember how many years. Even some who are closer to him than me was not invited.
I was still having last minute thought “should I go? Or should I not go?” I took up the courage and went ahead to the wedding dinner. The wedding was not one with a lot of people like most of us or those I have attended. I was a small and sweet kinda wedding dinner.
I was lazy so I actually went with my friend and his husband. It was like 1st time coz I normally will drive myself, but then yesterday I was just plain lazy, hai. When we reached there I saw some familiar faces on another table, I recognized them. They were my 5th former mates man… I went over and chat a while, for a few times during the course of the dinner. Then toward to end of it, I was like changed over to their table.
I was like going back memory lanes with them, they have changed so much from the last time I have seen them, or was it just me who forgot how they were. It’ s like more than 10 yrs since I have last seen or even chat with them…
Every one was doing well and we were chatting bout long lost times of yesteryears. All sort of story came flashing in my mind again. Thanks to my friend WK, if I remember correctly, he seems to have plotted the whole layout of the floor plan during our stay back in school. He was able to pinpoint every ones sitting location during those 2 yrs of fun learning days. He even has the latest news on our dear old school, who has retired and stuff like that.
Friends like YM, CM, CT, YK, TO, JN, LS, and me myself were like transported back through time, we laughed and we cheered the whole night like we were 17/18 once more. I know everyone has changed through the molding of time coz it’s been more than 10 yrs. But I guess those memoir of yesterday took over last night. We had fun, lotsa FUN. It was great to hear of those other few that once thread along with us during our journey through learning, the success they have, as well as the live they are living now.
I guess I was not the type that like keeping in touch, that is the reason why I am seeing them for the 1st time in years, but I have gotten their numbers this time as well as email. I guess I will start by communicating with them, so our friendship will not be washed out like the sands by the beach.

To the FRIENDSHIP we share man, let’s keep it together and of coz friends forever.
To all fellow librarians of MBSSKL “LIGHT BLUES FOREVER
To all fellow schoolmates MBSSKL “ORA ET LABORA

Saturday, October 01, 2005

Healthy Budget??

The budget is out man….
I was talking to this burger man yesterday as I was waiting for his co partner to prepare my burger. I actually started the conversation and asked him is the budget out and he says yes. The 1st thing brought up was the price of cigarette!! He was saying “naik 13” and I was like the naïve boy who has not like bought ciggie for so long, asks what is the price now and he replied mi “enam setengah”. I was like “WHAT!!” 50% increment, I did not even get a 2% increment and here they are raising the prices like 50%.... this is bad man, real bad…

I went and bought the papers today and then I saw on the news that it was 13% increment and not the 50% I thought of yesterday nite!! 13% percent is gradually le, not so bad but then it’s going up and up. I guess if you are not really into ciggies then it’s high time to quit now as its gonna be getting expensive by the year man. So winn and all my other pals, it’s time to quit the ciggies man, and you can dump the $$ into drinking. Muaaahhahahaha….

Liquor also going up like 9%..... That is the killer for me man. So how’s my Friday nite’s gonna turn out now, I have to think of alternative man, is there anyone out there got jalan where can find cheap booze???

I guess the budget benefited most of the citizen in a way but it took most of the entertainment out of life, geeezzz. Think bout it, when u are celebrating something, birthday, victory, successful business, there is always liquor. When you are down, heartbroken, bankrupt, business dying, there is also liquor.

I guess I have to cut down on the passion & jungle as well as my favorite luna for the time being. May be resulting in cheap liquor in the house, may be, just may be I can make some cash out of it. Anyone into venture business, a open house bar, jes kidding man, don’t want to get in the way of the law.

I guess it was the best for the healthy, so I feel bad, am I not healthy…..
May be in a way, may be in a way…..
So “R U HEALTHY”….

Friday, September 30, 2005

A Budget For All

It’s the time of the year again. I guess the papers will be selling like hot cakes tomorrow!! The budget is gonna be out tomorrow!! A brief recap that I heard over the radio this morning is that there will be increase in allowance for government servant and a definite bonus for them. Another good news for the mutual working public like you and me is that you would be taxable if you are earning above 3K.

I have never been a great fan of the papers unless it’s bout technology. But I know there are loads of people out there waiting for the outcome of budget every year. Basically those are businessman and definitely concerned citizens. I on the other hand will be the busybody. People buy then I buy, people read then I read, kinda attitude.

I guess I have to start to take part even though as passive as possible in the country’s conditions n stuff. I am not hoping that much as like previously but definitely the liquor price is of concern. If it goes up like a bomb, I guess my entertainment will be affected. How to go out for Friday parties if the drinks keep going up in price. It’s just like petrol, but this will be double the pain.

All in all I guess the main taker of all this would be the supplier of those product, (needless to say what it is). While those of us will still have to succumb to whatever changes that is coming our way. What else can we do but whine whine whine…

Let’s hope for the better, well in this cases even worse become a better as it could get worst and ugly…

As I post this I think the budget is starting now. Let wait and see and definitely pray for the better for all citizens……..

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Disordered Me

“Oh my gosh, where is it”, sweating all over.
“Where the heck izzit, where did I put it. Did you put it away somewhere”, wiping the sweat accumulating all over.

Being a disordered person that I am I was actually looking for my car grant, damn. I remember eyeing it some what a few months ago, but to no prevail it seems to have disappeared from the crack I left it in, but alas I found it at last hiding some where in another crack in between my stuffs. I guess I have to put my things in order, if not who knows what I might lose the next time!!!

I bet this has happened in our life, once in a while or may be just once when we were small and disorganized. For me it’s like a routine or some thing, “darn”, I am having a hard time trying to shake it off.

Doesn’t it feel ironic, we knew that it was important, but yet some how we ignored it until a point where it is crucial, then we take a look at it. There has been times when we look back and we said “IF THIS”, “IF THAT”, “IF ONLY”, then some thing might have turned out different. But what can I say, I have done things that way, I have chosen, I made my choice at that time, and this is the result. So why whine now. Is whining the way to go to erase the past?? “NO”. Is whining going to change anything?? “NO”.

If whining is not going to solve the problem then why “WHINE”?? I guess it’s the right or so to speak a way to express the self anger and frustrations against one self!!

I guess we cannot kill this whining business, if not then one of the spices in life will be gone. From that I guess the soup of life will definitely be of a different taste altogether. So for those who whine (including me), do it sparingly, don’t over spice your soup if not it will burn your taste bud.

“To be totally organized spells boring
To be totally disorganized spells havoc
To be organized partly and disorganized sometimes spells spicy life”

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

The Tiny Zebra

“Murderer!! Murderer!!” These are something that has been shouted indirectly in the radios, TV, newspaper and any other media reachable to human kind, (at least in this side of the shore). They say “once bitten twice shy”, but in this case “never bitten never care”. I guess this is what is going through every ones mind. Even I am one of the majorities that take these lightly.

A colleague of mine recently was warded in ICU for Dengue and then a week later 3 members of his family was warded for dengue. There is a big “hu-ha” over this matter and recently there has been new discovery made on the aedes mosquito. It seems that now they are stronger and better than before, they can now fly farther and more than 20 storey high!!

So what are we doing to prevent this?? I guess those who have gone through it will go to the ends of the earth to prevent it. But for the majority others, it is ignored. Leaving places for these bloodsuckers to breed, disposing unwanted stuffs in the drain and so forth. When will we learn that it’s gonna be too late when we are lying in the bed in a foreign place with 4 walls and needles poking in our skin.

I was thankful that my colleague all his family is ok now and stable. But god knows what I will do if it happens to me. Imagine lying in the bed unable to move but just barely able to open my eyes and feeling some needles poking through your skin.

Geeeeeee…..
Thank is something I am not willing to go through, period.
Let’s hope things will subside and everyone will do their part in keeping everyone safe.

“DIE!! ALL OF YOU DIE!! DIE U MONSTROUS MOSQUITO”

Heh heh heh!!!!

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Absent Minded?? OR ......

“Move out in T minus 10 sec and counting”
“8, 7, 6, hey hey hey, you missed the drop point, where are you going”
“Abort mission, abort mission, you idiot!!”
Imagine this happens in the military, I think the driver or whoever it is will be penalized, definitely!! But can you blame the poor guy, did he misjudge or was it on purpose?? Who knows, but only him?

I was sending my mum like usual yesterday, and I do think everyday (mind you). But to even my own surprise, I just drove past the point I was suppose to drop off my mum. I realized suddenly when my mum took off her seatbelt so I stepped on the brakes and stopped at the side, quite far from the drop off site.

What was I thinking?? Even I could not answer the question until now. I was like blank, with nothing in the mind at all, zip, zero. I guess this is not the first time, (the blankness not the bad son thingee), I have got these kind of occasions before. But to date I do not seem to find any explanations. There were times when I just sit and stare into the monitor, the window, or something, and suddenly I realized things not done, but during that time it was like a loss in time. Like Mulder used to say, we lost 20 mins, we lost 20 mins, do you understand what that means!! I certainly don’t.

I guess I am either getting old or I am going off the edge. Let’s hope those minutes weren’t the work of extra terrestrial. I wouldn’t want to lose X mins, forget wat happened and get poked by some unknown being. It feels strange and yuck.
There is nothing I can do for the past but I will have to be careful in the future. I just hope I don’t suddenly wake up 1 day and asks myself how did I get home yesterday night and when I look in the mirror I see red spots or weird looking marks.

Eeeeeeeeeee

I don’t want it that way

Friday, September 23, 2005

U said U Love Me

When U were only 5 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U asked me: “What is it?”
When U were 15 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U blushed… U look down and smile…
When U were 20 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U put your head on my shoulder and hold my hand… afraid that I might disappear…
When U were 25 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U prepare breakfast and serve it in front of me, and kiss my forehead and said: “U better be quick, it’s gonna be late…”
When U were 30 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U said: “If U really love me, Please come back early after work…”
When U were 40 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U were cleaning the dining table and said: “ok dear, but it’s time for U to help our child with his/her revision…”
When U were 50 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U were knitting and U laugh at me…
When U were 60 yrs old, I said I Love U…
U smile at me…
When U were 70 yrs old, I said I Love U…
We were sitting on the rocking chair with our glasses on… I’m reading your love letters that U sent to me 50 yrs ago… with our hands crossing together…
When U were 80 yrs old, U said U Love me!
I didn’t say anything but cried…
That day must be the happiest day of my life!! Because U said U Love me!!!

It’s ironic, but yet it’s so true that you might start to well up with tears as you read. How many times have we said these 3 words to the wrong person?? How many times have we said the 3 words to the right person?? Often enough we keep these words in the heart, not telling them, how we feel inside, for fear or rejection, shy and so forth. And often enough these words are muttered out of desperation when things have gone bad enough that it is ending. Was it out of desperation, stress, or true from the heart… how to know??? Should we go on telling every tom, dick and harry we know we love them?? Then people will start staring like we are aliens from mars.

But I guess it is simple and true that simple words can mean a lot, now who says actions speaks louder than words huh!!! A very subjective matter that applies to different person at different time I guess.

I find that I myself have not been using the words since a long time ago. I have I can pick up the courage to tread back to start using them so I can show how much I care and appreciate those whom I love so much, mum, dad, family, relatives, and of coz all my princesses. Wish me luck and definitely you have my wishes of luck support!!!

“I LOVE U ALL”

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Fire!! Fire!!

RRRRIIIIIINNNNNNGGGGG!!! The alarm went off like it’s the last time to annoy anyone. The fire alarm went off, and I was sitting at my place chatting on using IM. I had to bid farewell to my fellow chatters to say I will be right back after the fire. It’s normal in my office when the alarm goes off, every one will still stick to their sticky seats typing and staring at the monitor. I was one of them. I guess we have gotten used to these kinds of fire drills as well as the false alarms that occur once in a while.

I guess this typically reflects life as well. So often in life we take things for granted as they are sent to our doorsteps in a silver platter. How often have we stop and ponder upon ourselves and ask who we are or what have we done or what have we achieved?

It’s often enough that among our friends, relative and even ourselves, have regretted a thing or two. How many times have we say “I should have treated him/her better”, “I should have visited him/her when I was free/had the chance”, or “I should have told him/her when I had the chance”.

So many have said it’s his/her own fault that it has ended the way it is, but they never thought that those are the exact word they muttered with crying eyes and moaning lips. They were given the same remarks are they have given to other before as well.

No one is perfect, but learning is the stepping stone which we should take. We should learn to appreciate not only those that we work for, but for the things that we earn from the giving hands of others. Most of these can be earn only once and if unappreciated you may never find it for a second time. Even if you manage to earn a second time, it will be totally different.

I have been such a person, taking things for granted. What if it was a real fire, I would have been a victim!! Why do we keep gambling with our lives?? When are we going to learn?? When am I going to learn?? Have I learnt from all my past mistakes?? I don’t know!!?? I don’t know!!
I do sincerely express my apologies to all my princesses, for all the wrong that I have done, and my heartfelt wishes are with you for happiness and joy, wherever you are!!

“Those we work for, can be gained again through work, those we gain from others, will never be the same even given a second chance”

Help! Help! Help!

“Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!”. A loud bang is heard, the sound of metal hitting flesh and bones. That would most probably what would have happened if I overtook the old car in front. I am not the model driver or what but neither am I a reckless driver. But how to be calm while driving in the morning as people around you start cutting in queues from god knows where. That is why I fully support the act of summoning those drivers especially those who did their share of cutting at the Dewan Bahasa Dan Pustaka area in the morning.
Coming back to this morning, this girl is barely 20 or in her early 20s, I think she might be a college student or some sort. She just left her condo gate and walked across the road without even looking straight, she was looking at her shoes or something. The lady in front of mi was actually driving slowly and stopped as the girl was right in front of her. She was stunned, both of them I guess. The girl was so stunned she looked horrified with her eyes wide open and one hand still clinging to her shoe. At that moment it made me wonder if I was driving in front she might have drawn her last breath standing as normally I don’t drive slow (I consider 20 to 30 is slow as a turtle).
I don’t know what is going on in her mind, she might be facing some problems of some sort. Don’t you have these kinda sessions before, where you keep asking what is this happens to me, what if that happens to me. Is it just in our mind or are we all phobia of death or bad luck. We always say if this happens this is how I will react and this is what I want to do. But if it really happens, do you think you will be able to do all those stated before. Haven’t you tried to comfort a friend or colleague and you get the remark “what do you know, it’s not you that’s going through the tough time”. Many a times I wanted to bite back, “if you’re so tough, then don’t come asking “what to do what to do”, and whine like a baby”, but only if they come asking for it. That is why I normally keep quiet until they ask for opinions
We always say we know and we understand or we’ve been through it before. But did we really go through those that they are going through. Can we compare our experience with the pain they are so seemingly going through with so much pain? Can we even help them or are we even supposed to help them?? I guess its trial and error in this situation, if they accept then its ok, if not then the remarks will start barking at you.
I guess you have to be careful in helping as they might bite you back, so take heed. I hope I don’t have to go through too many bad times as well as all my friends. So think positive and let’s make a better world.

Peace to all

Monday, September 19, 2005

Hightech Casinos

It has been sometime since I tread myself to Genting highlands, one of our nation’s attractions. My journey to this place is likely twice or so a year depending on the crowd and the purpose. The younger crowd normally comes for the games & theme parks. The adults normally will tread at least once to the all famous casino. The music lovers will come for the performances & so forth.

My trip this time of coz ended up in the casino as well. I have been going into the casino for quite some time but definitely not the frequent ones. I mean I go like what I said twice a year or so. As in the past there will be enhancements every time I visit the place, be it addition of tables, renovations, new slot machines, yada yada yada.

But what caught my attention this time was the change in the games from manned to unmanned. The games have gone from the tables to a big screen with many chairs. The most impressive part is that the computer graphics was stunning!! Way to go IT people!!

But in respect to sophisticated technology there are definitely the passionate gang that like to sit by the tables yelling “PICTURE”, “BIG”, “SMALL”, “OVER”, and definitely the expression when something goes wrong for them “@#$^@#$% like that also can ah”.

The biggest change in this industry is the technology advancement that has been incorporated in the games to make it more attractive and of coz there are those patriots to the games who refuse to deal with a machine. They definitely like to see the face of the pretty girl dealing the cards or rolling the dice for roulette.

But I figure no matter it is a computerized or the traditional game, the crowd is tremendous. I can see patrons’ sitting at tables until the sun comes out (of coz you have to refer to your watch).

We will just have to wait to see if the casino opening in Singapore will threaten out little hut up the hill. As for me I lost 20 bucks up there, I wonder if I will be able to get it back someday. But if you ask me, 20 bucks for some sheer fun is ok to me, as long as I am not throwing all my fortune there.

So be wise and remember the word fun, then you might avoid the grieve of losing more than you can bear with.